another year

this is for later.

epicurus writes: ‘Thus that which is the most awful of evils, death, is nothing to us, since when we exist there is no death, and when there is death we do not exist.’

it is my birthday!

time flies

i was eating pizza and saw a fly. i thought about how a fly's lifespan is 24 hours. thinking about this short life made me think about how short our average lifespan is. there are turtles that live for hundreds of years.

i thought about how little i knew and how little i will know for the rest of my life. there was a baby fly too. the pizza place was most likely the only space that the fly would live in; much like earth is the only space that we will live in for the foreseeable future. of all the knowledge and experience that exists in the universe, we will only know a small if not fractional amount. the naivety of some humans.

pizza tasted good though.

sore

i am unfamiliar to this type of cruelty. i guess i am fortunate that it has been unfamiliar for so long. sorry to be cryptic. life is terrible right now.

excited for this!

:artists.

art is a luxury.





act accordingly.

orbit

under the bridge

whhhhhhhhoooooooooooooooooooooooooossssssssshhhhhhhhhhh! i'm back like merlin from bermuda. november was the last entry huh? not a lot going on i guess. i've been rapidly approaching rock bottom. still not really hitting it though. i guess my life right now can best be described by the title of this blog i started a few years ago. what can i say. i make s happen. or not. whatever makes me sound cooler.

currently, i have no job, no money, and no inspiration. i don't really know what to do with my life and i feel like that is a pretty standard feeling for people my age. i don't like failure, but i am definitely exploring it as a lifestyle. today is also said to be the most depressing day of the year. i have been looking for jobs, but i kind of want to do something else that isn't being degraded for small amounts of money. i guess i might be willing to be degraded for large amounts of money, though.

i have been learning new skills as i am bored as f everyday that i am not working. i hate feeling stagnant. time for change.